My First Post
This is my first post on the creating day of the blog.
I do not really know what to say because I know there is no one will see except myself.
I am a kind of lost in these days in Guangzhou since I came here one month ago. I always find myself stand among nowhere, just being aimless and emotionless. I know this condition is bad and i should get moving and try to be happy & positive & brave. But I just can't, I can not cheer up myself for most of the time.
Everyday, I get up and go to work at 7a.m in the morning and back home around 7p.m. During the 12hours, I often find myself do not know what I am doing nor what I should do. Finding oneself doing one's job only for money is really depressing. I think I should find a goal and get myself a chance to get satisfaction form my job and therefore saving myself out of the mess i make for myself.
The reason i choose to come to Guangzhou is so obvious although I often deny is that i came here in hope that my ex-bf and I can get back together if we are in the same city. But life is not be the way you want it to be. So I decide to put my "get-back-together” fantasy into an end and face the life. Someone told me that do not give up the thing you can not live a single day without thinking of. But when it comes to the real world, I found that I have to give up something to live my life. I am indeed thinking of him everyday, but I do not feel sorry for it. Memory is not a bad thing, even if it brings you pain. The pain remains you that the happiness you had and tell you to treasure what you have now since you won't know when you will lose them.
Things are changing everyday. I need to figure out a way to realize my dream and become the person I want to be.
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